Breaking Out of One's Head (& Awakening to the World)

Nixon, Gregory Michael (2019) Breaking Out of One's Head (& Awakening to the World). In: Mysticism and Meaning: Multidisciplinary Perspectives. Three Pines Press, St. Petersburg, FL, USA, pp. 29-57. ISBN 9781931483407

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Herein, I review the shattering moment in my life when I awoke from the dream of self to find being as part of the living world and not in my head, discovering my perspectival center to be literally everywhere. Since awakening to the world takes one beyond thought and language thus also beyond the symbolic construction of time, it is strange to place this event and its aftermath as happening long ago in my life. It is forever present. This fact puts into question the reality of my daily journey from dawn to dusk with all the mundane tasks I must complete. My linear march into aging and death inexorably continues, yet it seems somehow unreal, worth a smile as the inevitable changes ensue. Still, I write of the events leading up to my time out of mind and then review the serious repercussions that followed when I was drawn back into ego only to find I did not have the conceptual tools or the maturity to understand what had occurred. I close by looking back with theories that might explain what happened. I am now ready to allow the memory to sink into peaceful oblivion and reference it from within my mind no more. Ironically, the memory itself with its façade of knowledge may prevent me from a new, unexpected mystical experience. Only by forgetting can I hope to leave a crack in the verbal armament of self, so the world soul may break through and free me once again.

Item Type:Book Section
Additional Information:Authentic personal journey, some elements may be disturbing.
Uncontrolled Keywords:mysticism, transcendence, psychedelics, LSD, self, awakening, shock-therapy, psychotherapy, narrative
Subjects:B Philosophy. Psychology. Religion > B Philosophy (General)
B Philosophy. Psychology. Religion > BD Speculative Philosophy
B Philosophy. Psychology. Religion > BF Psychology
P Language and Literature > PN Literature (General)
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Deposited By: Dr Gregory M Nixon
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